Quote 309 - Listen

Random Thought 155 - Looking Forward To A Better New Year

A better and brighter new year is what we always look forward when our current and previous years were not that good.

To hope for the best, which includes the coming of the new year, is what we pray and look forward to when life becomes a little bit rough and hard.  We used to say that we will make up for those unfruitful and rough year with the coming of the new year.  The new year becomes our symbol of hope to become better and make the best for what it's going to offer for us.

Along with the promise of a new year, we should also do our part on how to address those shortcomings we have experienced.  No matter how bright and good the new year is, if we are not going to move and exert much effort, life will never be good at us.  As the saying goes, we will do our best and God will do the rest.

Happy new year to us all and may we will all be blessed a hundred-fold.

Food Trip 154 - Magnum Chocolate Ice Cream Bar

For sometime now, Magnum chocolate bar ice cream has become one of my favorite stuff.

I have a sweet tooth and luckily, I don't have any problem with sugar because our bloodline has no diabetes to worry about.  However, I got alarmed because I learned that diabetes can be acquired.  I am relieved because after my recent medical laboratory test, my blood sugar is still within the normal level.

Anyway, sweet food is my comfort food.  However, I try to minimize my intake of sweet stuff because I don't want to end up suffering afterwards.  There even came a time when I would consume a pint of ice cream every night.  I am thankful because I was able to distance myself from that habit which lasted for nearly a month.  Today, a bar of small chocolate or a bar of ice cream will do.

I love and enjoy the sweet and mouth watering Magnum chocolate bar ice cream.  I tried all its flavors but there's one that I don't appreciate.  Though I always crave for strawberries, I don't find the strawberry flavor of Magnum quite enjoyable.  But for the rest, I can feast on them with much gusto.

Poem 154 - I Refuse To Sink

I refuse to sink
To the bottom of the ocean
The reason of my struggles
There must be a greater plan.

It is never easy
Swimming against the tide
But it is a no no
To fold and cowardly died.

I refuse to sink
Even if the world is against me
I just cannot surrender
My precious life and my destiny.

I know the battle will be hard
And the process could be draining
But I have to hold on
Because this means my everything.

I refuse to sink
Even with the bleakest certainty
I have to hold my ground
And fight come what may.

You can pull me down
But make sure to give your all
The moment I bounce back
I'll hit you with your hardest fall.

Quote 308 - Hold On

Moment 154 - Jamil

Super typhoon Haiyan or locally known as typhoon Yolanda brought havoc along its path with gusty wind reaching as much as 300kph.  It seemed like it wanted to get rid of anything and everything in its path.  Those who happened to experience its wrath has their own ordeal to deal with and stories to share that will last their lifetime because this happened to be the worst typhoon they've experienced so far.

It was good that the next day, it was a clear and sunny day much to the relief of those who survived and heavily affected.  But the aftermath of the super typhoon is a sight that no one watns to see or be happy about.

Everyone in our locality started to get busy with their clean up drive the following day.  Very early in the morning, even before the sunrise, people were already lining up the streets cleaning their own respective areas of concern.

With so much trees brought down to the ground, garbage scattered everywhere.  But for kids like Jamil, everything seems like a play to them.  With the pile of leaves waiting to be collected or burned, the kids find time to paly with it and make fun of the moment.  Just watching the kids play, no matter how affected one was with the onslaught of the super typhoon, the kids provide some reasons for us to smile despite of the tragedy.

Quote 307 - Love

Random Thought 154 - Christmas

I have a friend, a street-smart one, who becomes the head of their family at his young age.  They lost their parents in a car accident and since then, he becomes the father, mother, and a brother to his younger sister. At the same time, he has a daughter to attend to but the child is under the care of the mother.  The mother of her child has a new family of her own.

This Christmas, at his young age, he is very concerned about the welfare of his sister and her daughter.  He is trying his best to give them a Christmas present and he felt pressured about the situation when money is scarce and hard to come by.  He has no permanent work and money normally comes from an errand or a short-job stint which he patiently endure.

Though he tried to be strong and resilient about the situation, just like the previous Christmases that came before, I could see in his eyes and through his words how he felt bad about the situation.  He felt frustrated but he always put up a brave face.  Actually, if you don't know him, you will not even know the kind of burden and suffering he is trying to cover up with this smiling face.  But deep inside, his every day struggles are constant.

Christmas is for the kids.  He tells me this line over and over again.  He can deprive his own wants of some Christmas presents for the sake of his sister and daughter.  He is trying his best to look for that job and bring home some money and perhaps be able to buy some presents to his loved ones this holiday season.  

I know that Christmas is a tradition but nowadays, it is more of a commercialism that brings pressure to people.  The minds of the people have been programmed already that every kid should be entitled a Christmas present.  The pressure lies upon the shoulder of the adults who are trying their best for the sake of the kids and for the kids not to be left behind by their peers.  I may not be in the right position to raise some concern about how Christmas should be celebrated.  But the mere fact that our observation of this season focuses on material things, what good does it bring?  Of course, it must be good for the business but not for the soul.

Food Trip 153 - Dried Shrimp

There are different varieties of dried shrimps in the country.  My favorite is the smallest of them all.

In our dialect, the smallest dried shrimp is called 'tampukal.'  This kind of dried shrimp is fine and smooth to eat.  We include dried shrimps in the preparation of vegetables, fried rice, and even in plain rice.  At times, I even pick a handful and eat it right away.

Quote 306 - Best Thing

Moment 153 - Praying Mantis

We were going down from the mountain after a brief sight-seeing of the pristine and valued pride of a particular place.  When we stopped along the way to take some pictures of a scenic spot, I noticed a praying mantis clinging at the edge of my pants just before I rode the motorcyle.  Most probably, I got that one when I stepped to the grassy part on the side of a road.  I did not bother to drive it away thinking that it will fly soon because our journey back to the station was still a long one.  Surprisingly, it stayed with me for the hole duration of the ride.  And before I stepped down from the motorcylce, it managed to climbed and stayed at the back of the motorcycle where I was seated.

Quote 305 - Light

Random Thought 153 - Friend

For some reason, when we feel we are all alone, someone comes along and offers his hand.

It is easy to look for friends when life is merry and abundant.  All sorts of people could be your friends especially if they need you and you have something to give to them.  But when you are forsaken by the world and becomes suddenly isolated, the so-called friends of yours will retreat to their own world and will no longer bother to be with you.  Only a few will be there for you in your most trying times.

In your most trying times, when someone comes along and happened to stay with you upon learning your sorry state, that person is worth a piece of your life.  Seldom you can find someone who will support you and give you strength for your day-to-day survival.  His mere presence becomes your shield and your strength to look at life in its new perspective.

And for every passing of the day, with a new found friend who is willing to take the risk with you, life becomes worth fighting for.

Food Trip 152 - Sa Malamig

There are simple things in life that's not really that expensive.  Take for example the famous 'sa malamig.'  

This type of refreshment is available almost all year round in almost every nook in the city where there are plenty of people.  The simple ingredients like sago at gulaman, buko pandan, buko meat strips, and even straight from the can pineapple juice.  Along with mineral water (or perhaps tap water), sugar, evaporated milk, calamansi - are just some typical add-ons to these varities of cold refreshments at a cheaper price.  Ranging from 3 pesos to 10 pesos per serving, your thirst of a hot day could easily be quenched.  

Poem 152 - Fool

I never learned my lessons
The ones you thought me
Through the passing of time
They're all the same all day.

You always have a way
To make certain believable pleadings
Only to my realization
That you have hurt my feelings.

When things go out of hand
You make so much promises
And for countless times
You're referring to end of days.

I cannot understand
Your being good at lies
You keep on fooling me
While pretending to be wise.

I used to adore you
Treating you as my own
But with your given interests
Someone you can easily disown.

I guess I have my fill
Of turning a blind eye
Therefore, I made up my mind
To you, I bid my goodbye.

Goodbye to you
And to your deceptive nature
I'd rather live alone
Than trusting you a doom future.

Quote 304 - Shield

Moment 152 - Grasshopper

We were resting by the roadside and waiting for our colleagues when I went around and starting poking at things that fancied my attention.  I was surprised to see several grasshoppers in a plant and I got curious.

From what I'd seen in a documentary about grasshoppers, the moment they multiply in numbers and become dreadful, they are called locusts.  They would devour anything along their way, including their kind.  That's the reason why they keep on advancing.  They were trying to avoid the one that is next to them because they won't hesitate to devour their own kind.

For quite some time now, I have not seen a grasshopper.  Urban folks are normally denied of this kind of sighting.  The sight of a grasshopper reminds of a childhood that was full of fun and full of life.

Anyway, I thought that the grasshopper on that plant was simply resting.  As I looked intently at it, I noticed that it was actually feeding.  The plant was local to that area and is included in the people's dish.  But what gave me goosebumps was the sight of more grasshoppers feeding on the same plant.  And seeing them feed on the plant, they can literally turn the plant into a skeleton in no time.

Quote 303 - Good Friend

Random Thought 152 - Bigger Than Life

I used to hear from old folks when I was growing up the saying, "You pull your own tail."  I used to wonder what it means until I learned its meaning the hard way.

There are problems that are bigger than us.  At times, some problems are bigger than life itself.  Lucky for us if these problems can be shared with people close to us for that's the time our problem is lessened.  But for problems where the burden cannot be shared with others even if they are most willing to share their shoulders, that's the time when problems become bigger than us.

It is a normal reaction to be frightened and be scared of the situation especially if the terrain is out of our league.  Adding more pain and suffering and not just insult to the injury is the abandonment of those people whom you regard to shield and rescue you because you are part of the team.  Worst of all, these same people who abandoned you are the first one to stone and condemn you as well.  All of a sudden, you felt like you are all alone in the face of this enormous problem.

We might heard other people say that "Their God is way much bigger than their problem."  I guess if we only have this mustard like seed faith, not even a bigger than life problem can wrestle us down.  

Food Trip 151 - Pancit Lomi

I do not really have a big gusto over pancit lomi.  May be because from the past, all those pancit lomi I'd tasted were not that appealing to the taste.

One time, my cousin invited me to go out and the moment we were hungry, we went for a foodtrip.  Since it was already early evening, I opted for a rice meal while my cousin preferred a light meal.  She ordered a clubhouse together with pancit lomi.  

The serving of pancit lomi is good for two. Since the serving is too much for one person alone, I had no choice but to get some spoonfuls of pancit lomi.  And for the first time, I feel in love with pancit lomi.

When you visit Max's and you're looking for something hot to eat, their serving of pancit lomi will definitely make your day and worth every peso that you're going to spend.  The taste of their pancit lomi is definitely awesome and I can guarantee you that it will instantly become your favorite food.

Poem 151 - Hey, Miss

Lagi na lang kita nakikita
Sa harap ng tindahan na nakatunganga
Para mo na rin itong opisina
Wala nga lang maniniwala na boss ka.

Simula pa lang nang pagputok ng araw
Hanggang sa ang dilim ay dumalaw
Nakaalis at nakauwi na ako
Nasa tindahan ka pa rin dyan sa kanto.

Sobrang nahiwagaan talaga ako
Kung anong klase kang tao
Kaya't nagtanung-tanong ako
Na-curious sa pagkatao mo.

Hey, miss, na tambay sa kanto
Di ko masabi na anong ganda mo
Di ko alam kung nagugustuhan na kita
At di ko pa magawang lapitan ka.

Hindi naglaon ay nalaman ko rin
Ang babaeng laman ng aking paningin
Hindi ko alam kung ano ang iisipin
Ngayong natuklasan ko na ang iyong lihim.

Marami pala ang mga raket mo
Malamang ay daig mo pa ang sahod ko
Ending, five-six, hulugang mga gamit
Dinaig mo pa ang bumbay sa iyong mga raket.

Isang gabi ng ako ay papauwi
Nakita kita na nanggagalaiti
Ang karga mong bata ay di mo mapatahan
Ang isa pang bata ay minumura mo naman.

Hey, miss, na tambay sa kanto
Gusto ko pa naman ang ganda mo
Di ko inakala na nanay ka na pala
Napakabata mong nakapag-asawa.

Akala ko ay dalawang paslit lang
Pero may humahangos pang isang nilalang
Ang tatay daw nila ay nagwawala
Lasing at hinahanap ka na yata.

Mura ka nang mura habang papaalis
Ang lahat nang madaanan ay parang winalis
Para kang siga sa iyong inasta
Tyak ang mga miron sa inyo ay magpipiyesta.

Ang buhay nga naman kung minsan
Sadyang kakatwa sa ating inaasahan
Subalit ito ang realidad ng mundo
Gaya ng babaeng tambay sa kanto.

Hey, miss, na tambay sa kanto
Talagang pinahanga mo ako
Ngayon ay nakilala na kita
Saludo ako dahil pambihira ka.

Quote 302 - Hold Me

Moment 151 - Army Dragonfly

Army dragonfly - we fondly call this species of dragonfly this kind of name.  May be because of its camouflage appearance.

During my younger years, along with the other kids, we used to chase dragonflies.  That was the time when there were still plenty of vacant lots within our place where trees, shrubs, and weeds grow.  There were so many dragonflies way back then - with different colors and sizes.  But for the past several years, I noticed that kids are no longer interested in chasing dragonflies.  May be because we seldom see them anymore in our place.  Or perhaps the games kids want play keep up with the modern times.

Anyway, as I was taking this picture, I really took my sweet time.  As the giant dragonfly was resting, my camera was almost a couple of inches away from it.  It seemed staring at my camera as I continuously took the picture.  Once, as if threatened, it flew.  But after a couple of seconds, it returned to the same twig and allowed me to take as much pictures to my heart's content.

Quote 301 - Comfort Zone

Random Thought 151 - My Motivation is To Get Even

Call me bad or even worst.  But I will not allow other people to stumped me to the ground.  I will not allow them to be rejoicing at my expense.  One way or the other, there is always a way to get even.

There are realities in life that we simply can't shrug off.  There are unscrupulous people that will take advantage of us especially if they will not get what they want.  There are also users that will try to use us and once they get what they want, they simply forget about their commitments or disappear.  Such scums are hard to forget and they always lurk at the back of our mind.

Just like the saying, there are hundred ways on how to skin a cat.  Same thing is true with these kind of people.  There are always different possibilities on how to get even with them.  If fair and diplomatic dealings will not work with them, then, they'd better prepare because there are some things that can always be tapped.  

If you are going to ask me if it will make me a better person the moment I will get even with these kind of people?  My answer is simple.  Don't make me your sacrificial lamb because of your evil intentions.  I can also play your evil games and even the unthinkable ones.

Food Trip 150 - Ginataang Tulingan with Pechay

From time to time, I tend to order a white meat dish over the red one.  When I was offered ginataang tulingan, I readily said yes.

For me, any form of dish cooked in coconut milk (gata) is always pleasant to eat.  Regardless if it is a plain combination of vegies, white meat, or red meat, still, the idea of coconut milk makes me want to try it even more.  

A slice of tulingan is wrapped in pechay leaf so that each slice will have a pechay leaf on it and it will make the meat intact.  I was surprised to find the taste of this dish quite good and seldom I encounter such a preparation.  Normally, each region in the country has its own way in preparing a dish and at times, one can easily identify the dish because of the manner it is prepared.

Poem 150 - Salawahan

Hindi ko inaasahan
Na ikaw any magugustuhan
Marahil ay nakalaan
Ang ating pag-iibigan.

Masasayang mga araw
Daig pa ang mainit na sabaw
Mundo man ay magunaw
Hindi tayo malulusaw.

Subalit biglang nag-iba
Ang iyong nadarama
Bigla kang nang-iwan
Nang walang dahilan.

Labis akong nasaktan
Puso ko ay nasugatan
Halos ikamatay ko
Ang biglang paglisan mo.

Ang masaklap pang balita
Meron sa iyong nakakita
May kasama ka raw na iba
At sobrang saya nyo pa.

Akala ko ay ikaw na
Ang tangi kong pagsinta
Ikaw pala ay salawahan
Nagpapaasa sabay mang-iwan.

Hindi ko akalain
Na ako'y iyong paikutin
Ikaw pala ay salawahan
At walang kasiguraduhan.

Quote 300 - Best Moment

Moment 150 - Motivation

It was almost midday when I arrived at the site.  I planned to visit a nearby falls which is about two kilometers away.  I was told that the best thing to visit the falls would be early in the morning for the sun is much more friendlier during that time.

Anyway, I thought that the trip to the falls was somewhat manageable based on my capacity and past experiences.  My cardio is always my problem during a hard and steep climb.  And as expected, I was really challenged during the first phase of the trip.

Though most of the time we were covered by the shades of coconut trees, the humid temperature and the heat of the sun made it a challenging climb for me.  For my two guides who frequent the place and climbing the mountain is part of their daily routine, I looked like a helpless and trying-hard climber advancing in a turtle-pace manner.  I could not remember the number of times I rested for some minutes because I felt like I was going to pass out.  As expected, a steep climb is always my worst nightmare plus the fact that I was trying my best to keep up with the pace of my guides.

We were already on the even ground when we caught up with a group of visitors who were on their way to the falls also.  I was surprised and amused because I happened to see a seven year old kid that is much heavier than me and managed to reach that far.  Wow!  At his young age and for a first timer given his bearing, it was really an effort for him and his family to made him go with them despite of the challenging path and his weight.  

Though I felt like I was pushing myself to the limits, my motivation was to reach the falls and enjoy its breathtaking view.  I found out later on from the family of that kid that his motivation was a mouth-watering burger.  Haha.  It was good that I also had the same stuff inside my bag otherwise I might droll over seeing this wonder boy enjoying his reward after a tough climb.

To Andre, my full admiration and respect.

Quote 299 - Fall

Random Thought 150 - Perfect Timing

When you think that hopelessness swallows your world, there's always a brand new start that will unfold before you.  All you have to do is to have faith and be patient for that perfect timing to change the course of your life.

The moment we will be tested by a circumstance, our suffering and hopelessness tend to devour us when no particular answer or solution is within our reach.  At times, the feeling of being hopeless together with grief that's bone-deep makes us miserable.  And living each day seems like a torment of hell.

For all of our sufferings, all we ask for is that one perfect timing to set things right and to keep us in the right track.  For how long we need to wait for that one perfect timing?  No one can tell when it will happen if ever it will happen at all.  Maybe the right question would be, how patient and tolerant are we to wait for that one perfect timing to happen?

Food Trip 149 - Banana and Choco Spread

Sometimes, when you are looking for something out of the ordinary to eat, there's no harm in experimenting.

One time, I ran out of bread and crackers.  Since I was too lazy to go out, I tried the combination of banana and choco spread.  I got this idea because I used to prepare banana split with choco syrup.

I prefer Latundan (a local variety of banana) to be paired with choco spread.  Since Latundan is not sweet unlike Lakatan or Senorita, it compliments the sweet taste of choco spread.  And for me, this combination provides a healthy alternative snack that's just hard to resist.

Poem 149 - Misery

I am still awake
In the middle of the  night
I am feeling blue
And it is a sorry sight.

I've been thinking of you
For quite some time now
I keep on wondering
What happened to our vow.

We promised each other
To love and to cherish
Through thick and thin
This life we will flourish.

But your heart changed
For reasons unknown
You just walked away
Leaving me so soon.

I say you are unfair
For keeping me clueless
You placed me in a limbo
Suspended and in darkness.

I am still hoping
And praying that one day
You'll find enough courage
To lift me up from this misery.

Quote 298 - With You

Moment 149 - Sunburn

When I go out before and having so much fun under the sun, just like any fair skinned Filipino, getting a sunburn is always a big no-no.  That was before.

Before, I used to hide in the shadows every time the sun is up and the heat is scorching hot.  Whenever I am exposed under the heat of the sun for so long, I easily get a sunburn.  My skin turns to red like that of a shrimp or a crab when cooked.  And getting a sunburn is no joke because it will require me some months to regain my natural complexion.

Nowadays, I am no longer anxious of my complexion.  Sunblock or no sunblock, I would simply indulge myself to the fun along with my friends.  Most of the time, the fun is out there in the open and not under the shade.  And the fun will not wait for the sun to hide behind the clouds or when the sun sets.

The aftermath?  Well, I don't mind pulling off the dead skin several days after.  Sunburn and dead skin will simply come to pass but the joy and fun-filled memories will last a lifetime.

Quote 297 - Tired and Weary

Random Thought 149 - The Color Blue

"How will you describe the color blue to a blind person?"

I do not know if we've been programmed that color blue is associated with loneliness.  Perhaps, because we have our sense of sight, we reflect the color blue as a color lacking in high spirit or it does not excite our senses.  Since we are able to see, our perspective of the color blue might be entirely different from that of a blind person.  Or maybe, I am also wrong about my own understanding of the color blue.

I guess I am lucky enough and also blessed to capture this image.  With this image, I don't feel a stroke of loneliness but only tranquility.  It is like a dreamy state and there's no room to be sad or worry about.  It also defies the notion that color blue is not exciting at all.  How could it not be exciting when the image reflects a heavenly state?  Maybe the experience is more for the soul rather than our physical senses alone.

Perhaps you might ask about the right answer to the question above.  I guess you can deliver a good answer based on your experiences and perspective.  And, in most cases, it is always appreciated when your response is geared towards a positive note.  

Food Trip 148 - Boiled Sweet Potato

Through the years, a taste of boiled sweet potato has been part of my existence.  

There are different varieties of sweet potato and the sweetest of them all is the deep yellow variety.  With this variety, there's no need to add sugar or other sweet stuff on it.  

For quite some time, I used to alternate this one with my regular rice meal.  Usually, I have a cup of rice for dinner or a couple of regular-sized boiled sweet potato.  Though I am not really into a diet, a lite dinner like having some boiled sweet potatoes really promote a good digestion and sleeping is really comfortable.  

Poem 148 - Bakit Iisa Lang Ang Kulay Ng Bahaghari

Nakaupo ako sa tabi ng bintana
Sinasariwa ang mga gunita
Nakatingin sa may kalayuan
Binabalikan ang nakaraan.

Kay ganda ng ating simula
Pag-ibig ang siya nating panata
Marami tayong mga pangarap
Sintayog ito ng alapaap.

Masasaya't makukulay na mga sandali
Mga ngiting sa labi'y namumutawi
Walang katapusang kaligayahan
Sa isa't isa tayo'y nakalaan.

Ngunit ang alapaap ay natakpan
Mga ulap na ang hatid ay ulan
Nagising na lang tayo kinabukasan
Kapwa bigo at naging luhaan.

Masakit tanggapin ang katotohanan
At sadyang madaming mga dahilan
Kasabay nang pag patak ng ulan
Inagos ang pag-ibig natin ng tuluyan.

Heto ako ngayon at nag-iisa
Tanaw ang alapaap at hanap ka
May bahagharing gumuhit sa langit
At napapangiti ako nang pilit.

Bakit iisa lang ang kulay
Ng bahagharing nakatunghay
Ako ba ay namamalikmata
O sadyang nag-iba na talaga.

Doon ko lang napagtanto
Kung bakit ako'y biglang nalito
Puno pala ng luha ang mga mata ko
Ang mga kulay ay napag-isa ko.

Quote 296 - Dream Come True

Moment 148 - Quiet Moment

I always love to go out and spend some time looking at things closely.  Normally, we used to see things the way others see them.  But the moment we can spare some time and look closer, only then, some wonderful secrets could be revealed before our very eyes.

All insects are busy with their own affairs just like us.  We know that these insects need to eat, find their mate, multiply, and they die.  Some of them live in a colony while others are in their solitude.  At times, I wonder, how the daytime insects spend their night and where are they during nighttime?

One time, I was able to wake up early and I lazily spend my early morning stroll in the garden.  The garden looks familiar because it remains almost the same everyday.  In short, there is nothing spectacular or extraordinary in the garden.  Or so I thought.

I am always thankful whenever I bring my camera around.  That morning out of the blue,  I tend to examine and had a closer look on what seemed to be an everyday sight of the garden.  In one of those seemingly ordinary sight, a quiet surprise awaits for me.  

I saw a sleeping damselfly though its eyes seemed to be wide awake.  I oftentimes encounter damselflies and dragonflies near a body of fresh water.  Usually, during the afternoon, dragonflies and damselflies tend to fill the whole of the grassy ground and within their spawning area trying to find their mate.  But when the light of day is gone, the dragonflies and damselflies are gone too.  I guess with the very sight that early morning answered my question as to where they go when it is already dark.

Quote 295 - Childhood Memories

Random Thought 148 - Rock Bottom

Sometimes, we allow ourselves to hit rock bottom before we learn how to swim to reach the surface once again.

Should we consider people who have not experience so much pain and suffering extremely lucky?  Or are we trying to compare our predicament to them and try to ask life of its unfair treatment because we seem to suffer more than the others?  Is there really a fair existence o a just suffering for everyone?

I do not know if there is already a predefined destiny ahead of us.  If so, could there'll be also a predefined circumstance for us that will test our faith?  Is the degree of this circumstance based on how strong we are or simply at random?

The moment we hit rock bottom, it seemed that life becomes a standstill of fear and uncertainties.  Though help may be available at certain instances, still, we are the only one who can dictate how we are suppose to face life in its darkest moment.  We will be lucky enough if we can learn how to swim in order to reach the surface once again and face life with a breath of fresh air and strong will.  But for others before us who simply dwell on the bottom and chose not to return to the surface again, most probably, they saw it fitting the way they end their journey.

Food Trip 147 - Beef and Broccoli

If there's a beef dish that I will never grow tired in liking, that would be beef and broccoli.

I've been trying to prepare this dish for several times but I always failed to come out with a good tasting and distinct sauce that can be rightfully claimed as beef and broccoli.  For this reason, I can't help but to order this dish time and again whenever it is available.

Again, I am fond of vegies but if the preparation is right, I can easily finish a good serving of this dish with much gusto including the broccoli.  For this reason, I always considered broccoli as a fitting partner of beef.

Poem 147 - Only A Memory

I stared into a dusky sky
Long after the sun had set
I've been sitting here for sometime
The place where you and I met.

The powdery sand makes a perfect place
A front seat to enjoy the view
Sunset is always a romantic moment
Where there's me holding you.

I can still remember our sweet nothings
The ones we whispered in the air
They make watching sunset wonderful
Until my world turned into despair.

It was just a matter of seconds
When the light turned into darkness
I am still sitting right here
Holding on from a scattered mess.

I can't remember for how long
Since you shared this spot with me
I find it hard to get over you
Even if you've become a memory.

Only a memory, that's what you are
A bitter sweet and unforgettable one
I don't know for how long I'll mourn
Keeping a memory of you after my love is gone.

Quote 294 - Smile

Moment 147 - Beautiful Stranger

I joined a group outing but I hardly know most of the members of the group.  I only happened to know a couple of friends that were part of the group.  But since the group was accommodating enough, I was thankful for that wonderful experience.

During our island hoping (and swimming as well), I mingle with some of the members of the group.  I should say, at least with the presence of some of my friends.  Since I was not familiar with the rest of the members of the group, this did not deter me from interacting with people whom I barely knew.  

Everyone was having their fun in the beach and as we all know, there are so many crazy stuff we can do.  I happened to mingle with a group who were cheering their lady friend because she was about to perform a stunt with the aid of her two male friends.  Literally speaking, I had my field day taking pictures of her and her group.  

After trying a couple of stunts in the water, I then asked her for a pose.  She laughed off at first of my request and she was somewhat shy to make a pose.  Eventually, due to her friends convincing remarks, she gave in to my request.  She gave one quick pose and most probably not her best at all.  But nevertheless, I was thankful of her time and effort.

My friend then approached me and told me that those people were not part of our group.  Haha.  It could had been an embarrassing moment if I was turned down point blank.  But time and again, a polite request and a smiling face always do wonders together with a camera at hand.

Quote 293 - Friend

Random Thought 147 - Survival

Survival is the name of the game.  And in order to survive, morals which are dictated by society are not relevant anymore when your very life is at stake.

Some people may question your actions about how you deal with your own survival.  To some, your actions may defy the so-called norms where it is not accepted by the society where you belong.  I guess, it is easy for them to say about the norms they are always preaching.  But when they are put to a situation where we are talking about life or death, can they really practice what they preach?

Survival is self-preservation and if we want to survive we will do everything to protect our life and our interests.  Our actions may be harsh and to some would mean unacceptable.  Again, this perspective varies to which side you are looking.  And with all hypocrisy, those who are not in your shoes would call your actions as uncalled for.  But if only they will experience the same thing, I guess they too, will move heaven and hell to protect their existence.

We could be a sinner or a saint.  We can only pray that we will never be tested by circumstance when survival would make us forget that there is no difference between the two.

Food Trip 146 - Coffee Flavored Ice Bar

I've been influenced by a friend to try an ice bar from Korea.  I never thought that the simple experience was like a good treasure hunt.

We always frequent convenience stores around the metro and try different stuff especially the new ones.  Since we are already familiar with the taste of common ice bars in famous convenience stores such as 7-11, a visit to a Korean store offered a big surprise.  

I am not really fond of spicy food and that was my perception of a korean store.  I never thought that there could be something that would offer something to fancy about.  And when my friend encouraged me to try an ice bar, I readily grabbed a coffee flavored ice bar.  

I am not a coffee addict or a coffee lover.  It's just a couple of years since I tried drinking coffee, mostly iced coffee.  I must admit that I like an ice-cold beverage over a hot one which include coffee.  For this reason, a coffee flavored ice bar caught my attention.  

Unlike other ice bar, it is not too sweet but its sweetness is tolerable.  What I like most about it is its strong coffee flavor.  

Poem 146 - Nagdurugo Rin Pala Ang Langit

Kasabay nang paglalakad ko sa kawalan
Siya namang simula nang pagpatak ng ulan
Parang nakikiramay ang kalangitan
Sa sobrang sakit na aking nararamdaman.

Dama ko ang mga malalaking patak
At binubura nito ang aking mga yapak
Di ko ninais na tumakbo at sumilong
Sa ilalim ng ulan ako'y nagpapakalulong.

Ang mabigat na dalahin ko'y nababawasan
Sa bawat pag tama nang patak ng ulan
Ang sakit na dala-dala ko'y nalulusaw
Pati na ang kasawiang naghuhumiyaw.

kasabay nang malakas na pagbuhos ng ulan
Tila ba naibsan ang aking kalungkutan
Marahil ay nakatulong upang maibsan
Ang mga luhang sadyang di ko mapigilan.

Nagdurugo rin pala ang langit
Animo'y nakakaramdam ito ng sakit
Dama nito ang pighati ng puso ko
At ang pagdurusang sinapit nito.

Nagpakalunod ako sa ilalim ng ulan
Pati na sa mga luha ng kasawian
Malaya akong kumawala sa kapighatian
Nang hindi napapansin ninuman.

Biglang naging maaliwalas ang kalawakan
At kasabay na rin ang pagtila ng ulan
Nakatawag pansin sa akin ang kanluran
Nagkulay dugo ang parte ng kalangitan.

Bakit naging kulay dugo ang kanluran
Dama ba hanggang langit itong kalungkutan
Paraan kaya ito ng kalikasan
At ako ay kanyang binabantayan.

Nagdurugo rin pala ang langit
Animo'y nakakaramdam ito ng sakit
Dama nito ang pighati ng puso ko
At ang pagdurusang sinapit nito.

Quote 292 - Blue

Moment 146 - Cruel Death

There are some moments where you'd rather wish not to witness the real and horrible act laid before your eyes.  

I do not know what got into me that particular moment when I happened to witness how fishermen do really kill their bounty.  For the longest time, it was only during that time when I had this reflection on how cruel death could be bestowed over a fish.  Though fishes are part of our food chain, it would be really hard on their part to experience their untimely death on the hands of the fishermen.

When a fish is taken out of the water, we all know that too much oxygen can kill it.  It is like gasping for some air the way a fish twitch and flipped but it is because of too much air which suffocates the fish.  If a big fish is caught using a net or a hook, you have to strike hard its head so that you will not wrestle with it and for the fish not to be able to escape.   And the most horrible act could be a forceful detachment of its gills to prevent it from fighting and struggling.

After witnessing the cruel death of a big fish, I entertained this idea about people becoming fishes and fishes to people.  The question is: If you are a fish, what kind of death you will prefer in the hands of your captives?

Quote 291 - Lost and Troubled

Random Thought 146 - Self-Serving Opportunist

We used to hear from our superior the phrase, "let's work together as a team and achieve our common goal."

In an organization, it is a given fact that everyone will be working for the common good of the organization.  We are being paid to do so.  We are expected to uphold the best interest of the organization that we serve.  Everyone is likewise expected to be an asset of the organization.  Yet, there could be times when self-serving interests cast their shadow over the one who's calling the shots.  That's the time when "you need to work together as a team and achieve the goal of your superior."

It is, more often than not, an ugly scenario where your superior has these big dreams to work for at the expense of everyone else at his disposal.  You will not definitely miss his flowery tongue all over the place but will never meet you in contact eye-to-eye.  Why?  Because such bastard simply makes you his pawn for his own game.

How many times you've been acknowledge about your good achievements in front of his superiors?  You'll be surprised to learn later on that all those credits are secretly tucked under his sleeves.  How many times did he say thank you to all your efforts because he is promoted or awarded some recognition because of the good performance of your team?  He might say "good job" to you but at the back of his mind "a better job" for him to make you work for his own good.

There are so many of them, self-serving opportunists that makes you their "pawn" at their disposal.  Beware of these kind of people because you will never get a lift from them whenever they step up the ladder.  The moment you will no longer of no use to them, you'll simply be forgotten and treated like an outdated stuff within the premises of the organization.

Food Trip 145 - Avocado

One time, my friend drop by at my place for a movie marathon.  But before he started his grand movie marathon, we went first to the nearby fruit stand.  It was the season of avocado.

I bought a couple of big size avocados which weigh a total of one kilo.  Since my friend also eats avocado, I took the liberty to prepare the fruit for the two of us.  

Using a spoon, I manually grated the fruit.  Once done, I then added a couple of spoonful of sugar and a good amount of condense milk.  And I heartily mix the serving and hand it over to my friend.  

Instead of accepting the cup with avocado mix, he looked at it and asked me what was inside the cup.  I told him that it was the avocado mix.  He said that the mixture was yucky and looked like a baby's poop.  He added that he would prefer avocado slices and dip it in sugar than eating the mixture like what I prepared.  I end up enjoying the avocado mix by myself. Hehe.